Saturday, June 30, 2012

Tantrums and shopping


Today we drove around to check out some children’s consignment stores.  I’ve been to consignment shops before, but not children-specific ones, and I didn’t really know what to expect in terms of both selection and price.

I have to say that I was kind of disappointed with what we saw.  The first place wasn’t even there anymore, so that was a bust, and the other two…They just weren’t ‘it.’  I found the prices to be quite high considering the stuff was all used.  I know what the prices tend to be at places like Children’s Place, Old Navy, Carter’s, etc, and I felt like I could buy everything new for very little more than used.  And you could tell most of the stuff had been washed a lot, so it’s not like everything looked brand new.

I did get a set of onesies that looked brand new  that also came with a shirt and little pair of ruffled pants, that were all mix and match so the twins can be somewhat matching when they wear them.  And they’re for newborns, so they should fit relatively soon after birth hopefully.  But that was the extent of my purchases.  I think I just want to find something that isn’t Babies R Us, but that also isn’t the high end baby stores that are unaffordable on W 4th.  I’ll keep looking!

Andrew had a HUGE tantrum before we left.  We’re talking HUMUNGOUS.  Gargantuan!  It was crazy, and continued on and on…and on…for about 45 minutes.  What was his tantrum regarding, you might wonder?  The fact that I would not put his shoes on for him!!!!!

It’s getting hard for me to bend certain ways with my belly, so we’re trying to teach Andrew that there are things he should be doing himself, that we know he CAN do himself because sometimes he does, so that I don’t have to be doing everything for him.  I told him, pretty soon I literally won’t be able to help with stuff like that, so just put your shoes on and we’ll go!  But he was being SO stubborn about it.  James offered to help him but no, it HAD to be MOMMY.  I couldn’t give in even though I just wanted to put his damn shoes on so we could go already, because if I did that I’d be sending the message that a freak out would get him his way.  Not going to happen!  It was SO frustrating.  Especially with the mood I was already still somewhat in…It was tough.  But finally he came around, and he ended up wearing his boots, instead, but he put them on himself so we were able to head out.

True to his usual after a huge freak out like that, 5 minutes driving and he was out.  He slept for probably 20 minutes or so till we stopped off at a dollar store for a few things.  He was still tired most of the time we were out, but he was happy enough to peruse the stores with us.  When we were heading home I said to him, ‘Sorry those stores weren’t more fun for you, I thought they would have had more toys for you to play with’ and he replied, ‘Well, they had books, and BOOKS are FUN!’  What a good boy!

Now I really want to start tackling some of the ‘work’ I need to do…but I don’t have the energy.  Maybe a cat nap and then I’ll get started?!  I want to get our closet reorganized so I can get the bureau and wardrobe emptied out.  I have some of Andrew’s baby clothes that are gender-neutral enough to work for girls, and a few new outfits that I’ve got for the girls, so I want to be able to get them stored somewhere that isn’t in a big container sitting in our front hall.  There’s currently no space, so I have to create it.  Now’s a time when I wish we had lots of disposable income – I would hire a professional organizer to come in, take everything out of our closet, and rearrange it just so!  I’m great at creating space, but I always feel like closets end up looking cluttered and so mix-matched.  I need a professional!!!  Or, maybe I’m just feeling too lazy to do it myself.  I think it’s mostly the latter  :P

I have a feeling the weather has something to do with my bit of blahs I’m feeling…When I was getting dressed this morning, it felt eerily similar to October, and it gave me a really negative feeling, probably because last October was the worst month of my entire life ever.  It’s not that it’s cold out, in fact it’s quite muggy, but it’s SO GREY AND DREARY and I hate it.  Where is the freaking sunshine?!

At least we made the most of a couple of hours today.  I’m glad we found the consignment shops and had a look, even though it wasn’t what I’d hoped it would be.  Better to know than to still be wondering!

Better


I’m feeling a bit better than I did last night, probably I just needed some sleep.  I wish the weather was better though, it feels like it’s October or something.  I really want summer to hurry up and get here. And preferably to stick around for longer than a day at a time…

Andrew is obsessively watching the video for Michael Jackson’s Thriller.  Yes, he’s probably too young for it, but truthfully he saw it for the first time probably at least 6 months ago, maybe more.  He’s desensitized to it now!  And he LOVES zombies and creepy things, so it’s right up his alley!  I have to admit, I love the fact that Andrew likes Michael Jackson!  I can’t believe it’s been 3 years since he died.  I remember the day like it was yesterday, it still feels like it can’t possibly be true.

There’s just something so classic about Michael Jackson’s music!  Some of his songs might seem dated compared to today’s music, but yet it never goes out of style, and I’m certain it never will.  Long live Michael Jackson!!

Lame post, I know…but I didn’t want to leave things as they were last night.  I still feel a bit blah, but I’m pretty sure it is a hormone thing, and it’s natural to happen once in a while.  I’m lucky it’s so few and far between for me!

Friday, June 29, 2012

A pissy post because that's how I feel


Tonight just kind of went from bad to worse.  It started off not too badly, I was happy with how ¾ of the day went!  But tonight…sucked.

I over did it today so I was feeling sore and tired and I think that contributed to me getting sort of weepy.  I’m sure it’s pregnancy hormones and might have happened regardless of the situation.  I don’t tend to get weepy often AT ALL, I just tend to never cry, so when it hits me over the head and I get all teary and can’t stop crying, it really bugs me.  I don’t have issues with crying, as in, I don’t think it makes a person weaker or anything.  It’s good to have a cry every now and then!  But I just hate doing it, it’s not my thing.  I get frustrated by all the tears and snot and trying to clear my throat.  So then I just start to feel sort of annoyed and not just sad!  It’s easier to just not cry.

I think it has got to be hormones because otherwise I’d be able to better control it.

Anyway, so I sent a message to James just letting him know I’d got the stroller and car seats out of their boxes and it was all over the living room in pieces but I wasn’t feeling well enough to put it all together after doing a bit too much today already.  He informed me he was going out for drinks with his work buddies, which, fair enough, as a lot of people were having their last day today as contracts were ending (not James', but a lot of his cronies).  It was bad timing for me, yes, but I wasn’t MAD that he was going out insofar as I understood WHY it was happening tonight.  (Although it would have been nice to have had a little advanced warning as opposed to none whatsoever).  (And as a side note, despite how tired I was, I put the frigging stroller together myself, because let's face it, otherwise it wouldn't get done).

Mostly I was disappointed because I’d dropped Andrew off at my parents’ at my mom’s suggestion, so I could maybe get some rest and then have the evening with James.  But if he was getting home around 8, it would basically coincide with Andrew’s return home, which would then coincide with me getting the boy settled for sleeping.  Which means no time for the two of us.  I was disappointed since it could have been a fun night together, but instead I was alone, and then on my own with the boy.  Not that I mind being alone, OR on my own with my boy!  But…I guess you could say I was just feeling sorry for myself tonight.

Then at 7:30 James calls to say he’s having SUCH A GREAT TIME WITH HIS WORK FRIENDS…and then asks if I’m OK with him getting home more like 10pm instead of 8.  As if I’m going to say no, please come home, I’d rather you were here with miserable ol’ pregnant-with-two-babies-and-unable-to-do-much-of-anything lonely me.  What was I supposed to say right?!  Well, now it looks like another hour till he gets home, so basically he will get in and has to go to bed right away because Andrew will be waking him up by 6am most likely.  I REALLY hope for all our sakes he didn’t have too much to drink (he rarely drinks these days so a few drinks could cause a hangover for sure) because if he’s hung over and headachey in the morning I just might blow a gasket.  Because then I feel like I’ll have to compensate for his not feeling well from booze, when I really don’t think I should have to do that.  I’m a little pissed…off, not drunk obviously!!

You know when you’re just in a pissy mood and even though you’re sort of OK with what your partner chose to do, or at the very least you get why they did it, it's really 'no big deal', you’re just NOT HAPPY and there’s nothing you can do about it?  I’m at that point where I just don’t feel like chatting AT ALL when he gets in.  Call me a total bitch here if you want to (although if you do I might have a thing or two to say back, as I’m snarky AND PREGNANT X 2 so you might not want to mess with me, just sayin’) – but I’m at that point where it’s too late – don’t talk to me, I don’t feel like hearing about your wonderful evening.  Know what I mean?  I FEEL like a total bitch just saying that, but we’ve all felt it at some time or another, I’m quite sure of it.  It’s just the way it goes sometimes.

I don’t begrudge James having a good time with some friends, not at all.  It would probably help to give a little back info, which would be the fact that for the past month at least, James has had NO TIME for me whatsoever.  Me saying goodnight and chatting with him for about 15 minutes before he goes to sleep at night is NOT us spending time together.  Basically work has been so busy for him that he comes home, usually a little later than usual, and then when we finish dinner he works till he’s ready to go to bed, and if he DOES stay up a bit longer than after he stops working, he usually watches a show on Netflix that he’s hooked on that I’m not hooked on, so I do my own thing.  I feel like we never really spend much time together, yet (and this is the clincher for me) when it’s other people who ask him to do something, he somehow manages to not have to work overtime that day.  Know what I mean?  He would argue otherwise, I’m sure, but it’s the way I feel.  There is a little more to it than that with some upcoming plans he has that also surprise surprise having nothing to do with me and add it all up, I just feel pissed the hell off. 

I guess I look at it that in a few months, my whole world will just be babies and kid, and that’s the way it’ll be for some time.  Yes, it’s what I want – obviously having another baby (that turned out to be babies!) is what I wanted more than anything, it’s my choice for this to be my situation.  But at the same time, THIS is the time when I feel like I, too, should be doing stuff and having a little fun, but my life is so fucking routine all the time, and I don’t feel like there is much opportunity for anything else.  It’s partly just that I’m so freaking tired and can’t do a whole helluva lot ANYWAY…but really…Maybe it’s just all the over time and inability to really help me out as much as I could have used this past month because of work…I did my best to basically never really complain about it…TILL NOW…

Things are fine, James and my relationship is solid, he’ll sense how angry I am and do something to try to make it up to me and blah blah blah.  I just feel like crap tonight.  Reminds me of ‘Alexander and the terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day’ – one of Andrew’s favourite current books. 

Some days are just like that.  Even in Australia.  And Burnaby, as it happens.

Obsess much?


I had to just feed my obsession and get the stroller buying over with once and for all.  I’m still obsessing over it, how ridiculous is that?!  It’s a freaking stroller, for crying out loud!  I was going on and on about it to James last night, as well as things from my ‘list of essentials’ to get before the babies arrive.

Luckily James just smiles and laughs it off, and listens patiently!  It could be a lot worse – I could have continued to obsess over getting the top-of-the-line City Select.  So at least what I got seems like a steal of a deal because it’s about one sixth of the cost of what we would have been looking at with the more expensive strollers.

I went back to Babies R US and wasn’t entirely thrilled with the service…It was OK, but the person I dealt with yesterday was way more knowledgeable and professional, which I would have preferred.  But I know, it’s Babies R Us, not a high end baby store!  I checked out the one I was originally thinking of getting, for $269, and I was pleasantly surprised to find out the matching car seats were ‘only’ $150 each, which is cheap for car seats, sadly.  However, when I saw the rigmarole the woman was going through trying to get the infant car seats to attach to it, I realized I didn’t like that stroller option anymore.  It was ridiculous, and then the sales clerk started dissing that model and said it’s a piece of crap, so I couldn’t really go ahead and buy it after that!

I ended up getting an even cheaper stroller, the Graco Duoglider, which I’ve actually heard a lot of good things about.  It’s certainly not on the same playing field as the more expensive options, but there’s actually something about the tandem strollers I prefer over the side by side ones.  I’m not sure exactly what it is, but it just felt right.  I also loved the pattern of the fabric, which is a little more ‘fun’ than just the plain, boring black ones.  It was on sale (the sale started today, too, because it wasn’t on sale when I was there yesterday!) for $199, and the car seats were on sale for $179 each.  The car seats match the pattern of the stroller, so it all looks perfect together.  I decided to just go for it and get the whole entire shebang and then it’s dealt with and I can move onto the next thing.  I’m waiting for James to come home to put it together for me, because I did too much today as it is with carrying the heavy boxes into our place from the car (which I really probably shouldn’t have done, but I didn’t want to just leave big expensive boxes of stuff in the van all day!)  I also did a lot of walking around and stuff today and I feel like I over did it a bit.  I felt really winded today even before going to the store, maybe the babies are pushing on things and it’s causing me to feel winded?!  I’m not sure, but I’m pretty tuckered out – too tired to put the stroller together, which says a lot because usually I get something and I HAVE to have it assembled IMMEDIATELY!  It’s not like we NEED the stroller put together right away, but in order to put it away it would be easier to have it assembled.  Luckily I’m positive it will fit in our hall closet…once James takes a couple of things down to our storage unit!

So at least that’s 3 very essential items off my list – stroller and 2 car seats.  Done!  Most of the rest is just ‘little stuff’, although being the obsessive person I am, knowing the list is rather long makes it seem like the little stuff is bigger than it is.  I want to find some children’s consignment shops and see if I can find some good deals on things, you never know.

Can you tell I’m totally in my nesting phase now?!  James said he finds it interesting that as soon as I found out that the babies are girls, I immediately wanted to start nesting.  And it’s true, too.  I felt like once I knew, I could really get at it and get stuff prepared.  Now if only my energy level matched the motivation I have in my mind to get everything done…Slowly but surely, it will happen!!   

Thursday, June 28, 2012

Buying stuff for babies


My head is spinning just from trying to figure out what stroller to get for these babies!!

I decided against the one I was going to have a look at this week.  It’s the Britax B Ready.  I was at Babies R Us today returning a couple of things and when I was walking past the stroller section looking for something else, I happened to see that they had it right there.  Since the place I was going to look at the used one was a fair drive from our place, I thought I’d check it out in-store and decide if it was what I was wanting it to be.

It wasn’t.  I like it for when it can just be a frame and have car seats clicked into it, but when the babies grow out of their infant car seats, one would be squished in the back without any view and I knew I would hate that.  It doesn’t make sense to spend $500 on a stroller that I only want for the frame!

So then I decided to check out some of the front to back strollers, as opposed to side by side. And I actually really liked one of the Graco models that is $269.  So even if we got it brand new (which I’m leaning towards), it’s cheaper than what I was considering before.  Here’s the catch though…It would just BARELY fit in the back of our van, and I’m concerned once we have to move the seats back so Andrew will have leg room in the back, it wouldn’t fit.  So it might be a non-option because obviously we can’t get it if it won’t fit in the van!

Sooooo frustrated, I am.  What I’m considering is James and I renewing our passports so we can take a day trip to Seattle, where we could buy the friggin’ Double Snap N Go for $100 and be done with it.  It’s just a frame, so it would be the most compact thing possible, and when we’re done with it we can sell it (probably for full price, since it’s so hard to come by in Canada) and get the City Mini for about $500.  Should we just do that?  It feels like it would be so much effort to go to the US just for one day to buy a stroller frame, but I can’t find ANY store that will deliver it to Canada.  So annoying!  Also frustrating to have to get our passports renewed just to drive to Seattle, when ultimately I don’t see us travelling anywhere for quite a few years, so after one day trip it would just be sitting there collecting dust.  Sigh!

Maybe it’s the pregnancy hormones, but my mind is feeling bogged down by all the little things we’ll need to get for the babies.  It’s so much more buying for 2, even when it’s just the little things, it all adds up.  There are a few things I’m looking to get second hand for sure, which will save us some money, but still.  Babies can get pretty darn expensive!!

I’m complaining a bit, but I’m having fun with it at the same time.  I got the girls a few cute outfits today at Joe Fresh and I spent a bit of time starting to clean out the bureau in our bedroom so I can put their things in there.  Unfortunately they won’t have a closet till we move to a bigger place, so I want our entire bureau AND a wardrobe shelf thing in our bedroom to ALL be designated to the twins.  It’s doable, I just have to spend some hours reorganizing our closet and getting those things emptied out.  I want to have it done within the next month while I can still manage to do stuff like that!

Maybe I feel like it’s so much to think about because I don’t know how much longer I have before I can’t do very much.  I want to be as prepared as I can before I have to start asking people for help!  I cringe at the thought of having to delegate the things I’m used to doing myself.

Or maybe it’s just my nature to want to get things done early.  Andrew’s nursery was decorated and ready for his arrival by the middle of September, and he wasn’t born till the last day of December!  So I guess I just can’t help myself…


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