Saturday, March 31, 2012

When you move me everything is groovy

Last night Andrew had a sleepover at my parents’ place.  He’s still there now. 

So after my dr’s appointment last night, James and I met up at Salathai for dinner.  We hadn’t been there for a long time – it was as good as ever.  I wasn’t sure if I’d be able to eat there, since with being so nauseous I tend to stay away from Asian foods, or most foods for that matter.  But I felt up to it once dinner time rolled around, and luckily it worked out – I haven’t thrown up since yesterday early afternoon!  Fingers crossed I continue to do OK…I’ve been pretty nauseous all day today (and late last night) but I’m managing it pretty well for the time being.

It was nice to have a night to ourselves.  We watched the first episode of Luther on Netflix and I think it’s a series we could get into.  And I ended up getting a full night’s sleep because not only was it quieter with Andrew not here, but also the guy upstairs was relatively quiet last night, so I didn’t get startled awake by any noise.  Soooo nice when that happens, since it seems to be so rare that I sleep well!

I wasn’t feeling well most of this morning, but we still made the most of our time and even booked 2 nights at a hotel in May.  We’re not going far, but it’ll still be a change of scenery, and I’m really excited about it already.  We’re also going to book spa treatments, so we’ll have that to look forward to.  I can hardly wait!!  We’re really going to live it up (by totally relaxing and just enjoying our quiet time together, nothing crazy!) because this is the first time we’ll have had 2 nights alone together in about FOUR YEARS, AND we won’t be home for any of it, which means no chores or responsibilities, AND…it’s just going to be totally awesome.  Because it has to be.  Because it’s probably the last time we’ll get to do something like that for YEARS.  Thanks to my parents for taking on the boy for a few nights for us!!!

YAY!  I love having something like that to look forward to.  We’re doing this just a few days after our next ultrasound, so I’m praying that we get good news, that everything’s looking good with the babes, in which case it is going to be a celebration as well as a get away.  I’m kind of wishing the next several weeks away so we can just be there already!

Thursday, March 29, 2012

A quiet, getting things done sort of day

Fingers crossed in the hopes I don’t jinx myself, but today is the first day I haven’t thrown up in I can’t remember how long!  Andrew went to his nana’s again, so I had the opportunity to sleep in.  Instead of my usual way of thinking, which would be to get up before I actually want to because I ‘should’, I slept till I really felt like getting up.  I got up at 11.

I still feel nauseous, but not so severely as the past few days in particular.  My average per day throwing up was getting up to between 6-10 times per day.  So to be at almost 4pm without running to the bathroom once is awesome!

In other news, our sleep training Andrew is actually starting to get somewhere.  I shouldn’t get ahead of myself.  We’ve had 2 breakthrough nights.  That’s hardly anything to brag about, I know.  We still have a long ways to go, and there’s always the possibility of regression.  Or at least, his attempting to regress.  We’re going to do our absolute best to not give in (even though I would have such an easy time going back to how things were, letting him into our bed in the night!)

The first several nights were pretty tough, and we were close to giving up.  It’s especially hard for me right now to be getting up in the night, because I’m so exhausted as it is, that if I don’t get any sleep at night, I’m useless the next day.  And more sick, and more tired, and then stressed because I worry about the effects on the babies.  So James has been primarily dealing with Andrew through the night.  He’s not happy about getting less sleep, but he agrees with me that he’s probably the better one to be doing it.  Andrew knows that Momma has a soft spot for him when he wakes up and looks all babyish in the night.  I feel compelled to cuddle him and hug him and kiss him and have him fall asleep with me beside him.  Whereas James is taking a harsher stance, which is what the boy really needs.  No sleeping beside someone, he has to go back to sleep on his own.

The night before last, he went to sleep completely on his own and stayed that way for hours, which was the first major breakthrough.  Then last night, he slept in his bed (whereas he usually has a habit of getting up and sleeping on the couch by around 1-2am) straight through from about 9pm till 4am – and the only reason he woke up at 4 was because James got up due to a spring allergies sneezing fit!  Who knows how long he’d have slept on his own otherwise.  I think he is actually getting it, that this is happening, we’re serious, and he CAN sleep on his own.

Tonight will be the 3rd night so let’s hope the pattern continues.  I have to be honest, I still don’t sleep well at night (in large part due to all the noise our upstairs neighbour makes…I actually dreamt the other night that I went and asked him to be quieter…still debating whether or not it would be a good idea to make that a reality).  But at least we’re making progress for the sake of having everyone sleep in their own beds.  I loved our time of co-sleeping, but we’re at a point now where I know this new arrangement is the best thing for all of us.

Because I’m ‘only’ nauseous today and not throwing up, I’ve actually managed to be productive.  I ironed for almost 2 hours, and won’t have to do any more for at least a week and a half.  I HATE ironing with a passion, so it pleases me greatly to know I’m off the hook for the next little while!  I’ve also done several loads of laundry, and after I post this I’m vowing to myself to do some dusting.  I have to take full advantage of feeling OK at the moment, because you never know what tomorrow will be like!  I welcome the tiny bursts of energy I seem to be having, they’re way too few and far between these days.

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Sick and tired...literally

I’m so freaking sick, I can’t stand it.  It’s so debilitating.  Andrew went to his nana’s today, and I’m going to have to take him over to my mom’s at some point tomorrow, because it seems impossible for me to properly look after him on my own for a whole day.  I can’t stand the sight or smell of most foods, pretty much every time I eat I throw up, and that’s with the highest dose of Diclectin every day! 

I’m tired beyond belief, and I feel like I’m only getting the absolute bare minimum done each day.  Which is fine, I know I’m supposed to rest up, but seriously, these things are not going to take care of themselves.  Stuff is starting to pile up that I’m eventually going to HAVE to get to, and I’m concerned that the farther along I get, because of how much bigger I’ll be, it’ll be that much more challenging to do much.  I guess this is just the way it is, but I like to keep things orderly and feel good about what I can usually accomplish in a day.  It’s hard feeling so sick and exhausted ALL.THE.TIME. and feeling so unproductive.

Today my dad took me to the clinic I SHOULD have gone to yesterday to get my blood tests taken care of, and then stopped by Safeway so I could do a bit of shopping.  It was SO HARD to get groceries.  I usually enjoy grocery shopping, but it was so gross being in a store filled with smelly foods.  I thought I was going to hurl while we were in there, but I’d put off getting any groceries for so long, and we’d pretty much run out of fruits and vegetables.  Ugh, I can’t even think about it right now.  At least we do have some food in the house now, but the thought of having to prepare it sends me back to the porcelain bowl.  I have no choice because Andrew gets hungry every few hours tops, so I DO manage to prepare things for him, but I generally throw up before I get him a snack, and again after.  He doesn’t seem to mind when I tell him, ‘OK, I’ll get that for you, after I throw up, ok?!’  At least we’ve told him about the twins, and I’ve explained as best I can that the reason I get so sick is because the twins are growing and making changes in my body.  It must be a weird concept for him.

It was so cute yesterday morning – he kissed my belly, then put his duvet over it and said, ‘Now the babies will be nice and warm’.  I’d got him some crackers and cheese and carrot sticks, and he fed one of each to me, telling me they were ‘for the babies to eat.’  Awww!  He is going to be such a great big brother.

In the meantime, I’ll deal with these symptoms, if it means the babies are safe and thriving.  But I can’t help but complain a little bit about how disgustingly sick I feel!

Monday, March 26, 2012

I can't believe I did that!

I have to get several blood tests done, which is routine procedure in the first trimester.  I decided today was the day, so I took Andrew over to my mom’s and set out for the lab.  I had looked into which location was closest, got the bus route figured out, and thought I was all set.  Boy was I ever wrong!

I ended up getting off the bus where Translink had told me to, but I didn’t see anything in the area that looked like the Lifelabs.  So I called James, my go-to person for directions when I’m lost!  Luckily he was able to walk me through where I was supposed to be.  For some reason the stupid Translink site told me to get off waaaay before I actually should have.  If I’d walked from where it told me to, it would have probably taken me an hour.  Stupid, stupid!

As it was, I was having difficulty finding the place once I got off the bus at what James said truly was the closest stop to the place.  In order to avoid walking an extra 10 minutes around a winding field, I decided to cut through the field…only it was soaking wet, and midway through became muddy, and of course I was wearing very thin canvas type Airwalks.  Needless to say, my feet were soaked by the time I got to the lab.

Which, as it happens, is their head office, and they don’t have an actual clinic there.

Seriously!!  Money and a LOT of time, wasted.  The worst part was that I’d been so sick the whole morning, I had nothing on my stomach and was feeling ill and sooo exhausted, and here I was hoofing it to find a place that wasn’t where I needed to be at all.

I ended up just saying screw it, I’ll get the blood work done later in the week.  I was too sick and tired – literally – by the time I got that far.

I went to the mall and treated myself to a Blizzard before heading back to my mom’s, where I ended up crashing a few hours later and sleeping off and on till dinner time!  The whole experience was too much for me.

I forgot to mention that I was so desperate for food on the way to the mall, and I found some candy in my purse so I went to take the first bite, and bit down on the back of my tongue HARD.  After my nap I woke up thinking I was getting a sore throat, but then I remembered and realized that my tongue is swollen and sore.  So I can barely eat because it hurts to chew or swallow!  Awesome!!

Tomorrow has GOT to be a better day!

Sunday, March 25, 2012

Retail therapy on a sunny Sunday, why not!

Today I went to Coquitlam Centre and got some new maternity clothes.  I had to take a deep breath before going into the store, because it reminded me so much of the last time I went in there, which wasn’t all that long ago.  I really hope everything works out this time around, and I get to wear these clothes till my belly is bursting right out of them!

I got a pair of pants that are also capris, and one that’s just capris, a dress, and 4 tops.  I should be good to go for a while!  I might want to get a sweater of some kind, but there’s another store I want to check out for that.

I don’t like I having to talk to the sales people in maternity stores.  They mean well, but my issue is that I’m already apprehensive enough – being only 7 weeks along (to the day today!) and still worrying about how things are going to go.  I don’t feel like talking about my pregnancy with strangers like that.  I know to them I shouldn’t be jaded, but I am!

I also got some new sunglasses, not maternity ones though!  LOL  My eyes will likely be one of the few things that doesn’t get bigger =D  Last year right at the end of summer (I guess it’s a good time if it has to happen) Andrew dropped my sunglasses and they broke, so I wanted a new pair since we’re into spring now.  It felt more like summer today, actually.  Still a little hint of cool in the air, but soooo nice and sunny.  I LOVE it!  It’s so much more fun to go out when the weather isn’t grey and dismal.  And it’s so nice being able to take Andrew out without him getting chilled after a short time – he and James went to the park while I was at the mall.

All in all, a good day, with some retail therapy, I can’t complain!  Well, as long as I leave out the part about throwing up literally ALL morning, right up till it was time to head out.  Ugh!  I still felt sick for part of the time out, but I actually felt kind of better after eating a small crispy crunch blizzard.  It totally hit the spot!  Definitely good comfort food when nauseous!!

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Yay for spring and outdoor adventures!

Today our plan was to take Andrew to Burnaby Lake, only he decided he did NOT want to go there, he wanted to go to DEER LAKE.  So we obliged, and set off for Deer Lake.  We got off the bus right across from the Burnaby Village Museum, and I noticed the Open sign was on, so we decided to go there first.  I’m glad we did, because as it happens they had a scavenger hunt going on, and if you paid to go through the village, you got unlimited rides on the carousel.  Andrew LOVES the carousel, so we knew it would be a hit.

We did the scavenger hunt, and Andrew got his prize of a lollipop.  Then we hit up the little cafĂ© there and had some fries and iced tea, and Andrew picked out chocolate ice cream.  It was nice to sit for a few, and Andrew was really well behaved the whole time.  It was such a bright sunny day, perfect weather for an outing to the BVM.

It was so funny though, each time we left one of the exhibits and went back outside into the sunshine, Andrew would squint really hard and say, ‘I can’t see anything, I can’t see anything!’ and start wandering around like he was drunk.  It seemed to completely throw him off!  At one point I called out to him, ‘Just follow my voice!’ and he was able to find us again.  LOL

After that we headed to Deer Lake, where we went along by the water for a while, then over a bridge where we found a bench to sit for a bit to have a snack.  (It sounds like we were eating the whole time, but really we weren’t, though I *am* eating for 3!  Haha). 

When Andrew dipped his whole hand into the hummus we’d brought with us, I realized I’d completely forgot to pack wipes.  Or diapers, for that matter.   He’s mostly potty trained, but when we go out somewhere we tend to be a bit ‘lazy’, you could say, about doing the whole underpants thing.  But because we so rarely change diapers anymore, it completely slipped my mind to bring any, and so it also went over my head to pack the wipes.  Oops!  So after wiping his hand off on a bag and then Daddy’s pants (!!!), Andrew informs us that he has to do a #2.  He hasn’t done that in his diaper in I can’t even remember how long, so he wasn’t wanting to, but he was getting into a stance like, I’m gonna go!  We quickly asked him to please please please hold it in, because we could pack up right away and get to a public washroom.  He was really good about it, and thankfully we made it to a bathroom where he was able to go.  Phew!!  We were pretty proud of him for letting us know he needed to go, because it showed that even though he was wearing a diaper, he knew not to go in it.

From there we headed home, since it was starting to feel a bit cooler, and we were all getting tired.  Andrew had a little nap on the bus ride home, and I enjoyed the quiet cuddle time with him.

It’s crazy to think that this time next year, if we were to venture out like that, it will be 5 of us going.  I’m excited about the babies, but enjoying this time where it’s just the 3 of us.  It seems so much less complicated than it sometimes used to feel!

And I’m sooooooo happy, beyond words, that it’s finally SPRING!