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My little new year’s eve baby!

Andrew turns one in an hour. Well, technically not till 3:50pm. That’s when he finally made his debut a year ago. I can’t believe how quickly this past year has flown by. It’s kind of surreal.

I remember everything about the day that Andrew was born. Last year on this night, the night before his arrival, I met up with my parents and brother and s-i-l in the hotel lobby where my parents were staying. It was a very cold and windy night, icy and of course snowy since we had such a bad winter last year weather-wise. I could barely sit up on the couch in the lobby – I was all slouched down to make room for my over-stuffed belly. Andrew was already a week late and we were desperate for him to arrive. I remember my s-i-l saying, do you think tomorrow will be the day? And I said, it had better be!! I was set to drink a ‘labour cocktail’ in the morning to help get things going – which I did, but I am confident that Andrew was going to arrive that day regardless of whether or not I …

A (rushed) post about Christmas

It’s not even 11pm on Boxing Day and already I am thinking about going to sleep. I remember the days when 11pm still seemed so early - so many hours left to do stuff. Now when the babe is asleep and I know it’s only a (short) matter of time before he’s up again, sleep feels like a luxury I shouldn’t pass up!

We’re in Victoria now at James’ dad’s house. We arrived this afternoon. Andrew was so good - we timed it just right that he fell asleep for his nap about 5 minutes into the car ride and he only woke up maybe 15 minutes before we got here (it’s about an hour and a half drive from Nanaimo). Phew - it’s so much nicer listening to some music during the drive than a crying baby!!

We had a nice Christmas, I just can’t believe how quickly it was all over. On Xmas Eve we went to my Nana’s and had a visit with her then instead of Xmas day. It was nice for her to spend some time with Andrew - it had been a long time since last time he could only hold onto furniture and walk from chair…

Merry Christmas!

Been meaning to write for the past few days but haven't had the chance.

I can't believe it - just a few more hours till BABY'S FIRST CHRISTMAS! I'm so excited. Will be documenting with photos, video, and written journal so all will be captured and recorded =)

BUT the boy is getting fussy and overtired so time to go for now. Will post soon...

Merry Xmas!

TGIF - and this one in particular since it's James' last day of work till the new year!

Gearing up for Christmas.

Whatever that means.

I’m really blah tonight.

Had a good day. Hair cut and colour – just tidied up, a bit shorter but nothing drastic. Same colour as last time, sort of burgundy-ish highlights. Good chats with my hairdresser. She’s a fun gal. I also had the chance to (finally) do some reading.

Andrew babysat by my aunt, who had a great time with him. He didn’t fuss for a single second. Ate way more than his usual. Was sitting on the rug smiling after tons of playtime, then literally just flopped over and was out like a light.

Oh, to sleep like a baby!

Popped by James’ office on our way home to get air in the ol’ stroller tires. (They have a resident bike pump since so many of them bike to work). Thought if we stopped by there’d be a chance James would leave early and come home with us. Daddy took the bait! Hook line and sinker. In fact I didn’t even have to bait him – he suggested leaving with us on his own accord. I was most pleased about that.


Andrew's look of the week: The Scrunchy Face!

I’m starting to get the ohmygodit’sChristmasandI’mnotprepared pre-Xmas jitters. I had the best of intentions to be 100% ready by December 1st…Last year I met that goal because I didn’t know when baby was going to arrive and I didn’t want to have anything I HAD to be doing in the weeks leading up to my due date. But with baby in tow this year tugging on my pant legs and whining if my attention isn’t solely on him, it hasn’t been entirely easy. I go to look at Christmas cards for family, something I want to be able to put some thought into, and he starts fussing and crying because he’s bored. For the most part I’m completely prepared, pretty much all the gifts are wrapped (boy, was that ever a fun afternoon – Andrew didn’t enjoy wrapping, let’s just put it that way!) I guess I just start to feel the crunch of the year ending and needing to wrap up 2009! LOL
Especially with Andrew here and with his birthday just around the corner from Christmas, the whole vibe is different. I’m exc…

Almost time for the boy to go to least for a couple of hours!

Not really up to anything. Waiting for the boy to go to sleep so we can watch the final episode of Dexter, which we downloaded since we don’t get HBO.

James mentioned yesterday that he wonders if people would have a problem with us calling Andrew ‘The Boy.’ I said that anyone who knows us AT ALL would know we mean it as a pet name and not to mean he’s just the kid who lives with us, or however informal it might sound!

I think it’s kind of cute, he’s our boy, and thus, ‘the’ boy =) I like calling him that from time to time. His other nicknames include Andy, Anders, Drewboy, Baby Boy, Sweetie-pie, Garbanzo, Andy-roo, and many more!

I love the boy!

Anyway…he is exhausting me to no end. He just won’t let Momma get a night’s rest. And he’s going to bed later it seems, yet gets up at his usual time or earlier.

James and I went out for his work Xmas do last night. Dinner at The Boathouse by English Bay. Great service and enjoyable atmosphere but food-wise, even though it’s supposed to b…


Just finished watching Four Christmases and found it quite funny and cute. Some of the lines near the beginning of the film were absolutely hilarious. Andrew started nursing as we started the movie, fell asleep, and hasn’t woken up since. He’s sleeping on the living room floor so undoubtedly there will be another feed time before I get to go to bed, but that’s pretty much to be expected anyway.

This afternoon when Andrew FINALLY went down for a nap, I was about to start my usual – a whirlwind of getting chores done – when I thought to myself, no, make yourself a coffee and do something YOU want to do! So I made a GD Tass and did some scrapbooking. It has been my goal all along to get Andrew’s first year scrapbook completed by his first year (save for Xmas and his bday, which obviously have to be done after the fact). I was beginning to stress about it – yes, actually STRESS about getting my scrapbook completed in time! I know that sounds ridiculous because it’s a project that …

My mom says yes I'm growing, and now I know it's true

According to our bathroom scale, Andrew is now up to 23 ½ lbs!

He will be a year old in 21 days.

How time flies.

My baby boy is doing so much and even though he was independent pretty much since day one, he is more and more wanting to explore and do things on his own. He will push me away so he can do things himself, his own way. He is quite a character. A little boy with a very big personality!

He has taken to clapping, although again he’ll really only do it when it suits him. He mimics other people, of course, but it seems like he’s doing the same thing with clapping as he did with waving. When he first learned how to wave, that’s all he did for a while and then he just stopped. Now he just does it when he decides it’s a fun thing to do.

He has mastered the art of walking and has now moved on to working on running! He doesn’t get too far before he lunges forward and falls but I definitely have to move fast to keep up with him. He grins when he’s running, he loves moving aroun…

I wish a baby could be taught to blow his nose!

Getting stuff done. Always slowly…but surely it’s happening!

I made 2 homemade lasagnas this afternoon. One for the freezer and one for tonight. Not that James and I (and Andrew) could eat an entire lasagna in one go – well, James could! lol But it’s a good thing I made so much because as it turns out, my bro and s-i-l are going to come over for dinner. My lasagnas have gone over very well with them in the past so let’s hope this one is as good! Neither one of them cooks so I like giving them a healthy home cooked meal every once in a while ;)

We’ll be discussing my mom so the topic won’t be entirely uplifting…but at least we are working on solutions. Stuff is in the works and she has been to see her dr etc but it’s still up in the air as to what the next step is. I find it strange given how widespread depression is in North America – at least around here it seems very difficult to find information on what loved ones can do for someone in distress.

Oops, I just remembered my n…

I need to find our mistletoe

I feel like I shouldn’t be spending this teensy bit of time I have on writing, but at the same time I haven’t been writing anything lately (except Christmas cards!) so this is what I’m choosing to do. James is in the bath with Andrew so Mommy can have a bit of time to herself.

Baby has ANOTHER cold. It feels like he just got rid of the last one. I don’t know why this happens, although I guess it’s just the time of year. I make sure he’s bundled when we go out and do my best to take good care of him, but alas the sniffles fight their way in. I’m keeping my fingers crossed that James and I don’t get it. I am still coughing a little bit once in a while from the last cold that I only got over a few weeks ago and had for about 3 weeks…So let’s hope I am in the clear of this one.

Andrew had his first baby Tylenol today. I was trying to go as long as possible without giving him medication like that. I’ve used a herbal remedy from the health food store. But it wasn’t doing anything a…

It's Christmas time in the city

The day we took Andrew to have his picture taken with Santa I was so excited! I just couldn’t believe my little baby boy was meeting Santa for the very first time. It was a special moment. I was so looking forward to taking the picture home with us that day, and was a tad disappointed when they let me know that it wouldn’t be ready for pick up till the next day.

I was going to leave it a couple of days but I was eager to get that picture right away. So the next morning I got Andrew and all his stuff packed into his stroller and off we went back to Park Royal.

We decided rather than paying $9 for 2 4x6 prints, we would pay the same amount for the picture on a cd so we could print as many copies as we wanted (for sending out to friends and family for Xmas).

All was fine and well, I picked up the disk, did a bit of Christmas shopping while we were out, and back home we came.

Andrew had fallen asleep on the bus ride home, so I took the opportunity to pop the disk into my computer to tak…

The mothers

I am so tired.

So tired of dealing with other people’s problems.

I feel like I sound selfish saying that.

Especially when one of the people I am talking about is one of the most important people in my life.

But depression is difficult not just for the person going through it, but those around them.

I am extremely affected by my mom’s illness.

She has suffered from depression her whole life. How do you fight a 57 year battle and come out on top?

I feel I am at a loss. The situation has become quite dire. Something has to happen, and fast. I have talked myself in circles for so long now and I can’t sit on the side lines anymore, watching her spiral further and further out of control.

Before I had a child of my own, I looked at the world differently than I do now. It’s hard to explain, but something changed in me when he came along. Seeing the world differently means also seeing those around me from a different perspective. I sometimes feel as though my mom is reverting back to a chil…

Getting into the Christmas spirit early

Yesterday I decorated for Christmas. Early, I know. It goes against my ‘not till December 1st’ rule. Although I am sort of looking at it that November 25th is OK because it’s exactly one month till Xmas. AND given that we won’t even be here for a week at Xmas time, it makes sense to enjoy our decorations for a bit longer!

I’m just so excited with it being Andrew’s first Christmas. I didn’t go overboard with decorating though – since I can only really put things high up what with his curious grabbing hands and all! We got a 2.5 ft fibre optic tree (to replace our old one which I LOVED but had had the bun) and it’s up and away from baby’s grasp. It was fun decorating it, putting the various ornaments on that we’ve collected over the years, as well as a few from our childhoods. It was also special putting Andrew’s first ornament on – a little snowman over a bell with his name on it. It’ll be so much fun once Andrew can be a part of the decorating, making it a tradition the way we…

Say Cheese!

Today is what memories are made of…Andrew met Santa Claus for the first time in his life! And he smiled when he had his picture taken with him =)

It was so cute. We weren’t going to get his pic done this early but we went to Park Royal to get our Xmas shopping on the go, and lo and behold Sanny Claus was already there. It seems earlier and earlier every year, but practically speaking it made sense for Andrew to get his picture done today. Once he’s old enough to know what’s going on, I want to wait till at least Dec 1st before doing such things, but for his first year, well, we just couldn’t contain ourselves!!

It wasn’t busy so Santa was just sort of hanging around so he talked to Andrew while we got him out of his stroller. Andrew was staring at him intently and started smiling at him right off the bat. He sort of furrowed his brow and looked serious for a moment, as if he was trying to figure him out. But mostly he was smiling, and once Santa was holding him on his lap for the…

Time is of the essence

So much to do, so little time.

Isn`t that just the age old sob story?!

Today I got my cedar chest out of the closet and set it back up where it used to be, by the window in our bedroom. Our place is so freaking small, it really irks me sometimes how little space we have.

I decided to organize the closet better, got all our games and things out of the cedar chest and stacked them into the closet. Now the chest can be used as another toy box for Andrew! Lets face it – he’s going to want to open it because it has a lid and it’s going to entice my curious little boy! So it has to have kid friendly stuff in it, unless I want to put a latch on it like I have on everything else (I so don’t want to have to do that!!) He’s getting a bunch of new toys for Xmas/his birthday so it’s going to make sense to have more space available. He is slowly but surely taking this place over! (Oh, alright, he already has!!)

My boy’s not the least bit spoiled.



I was in a bit of a ‘mood’ tonigh…

Little by little, getting things done

Sometimes I make weekly lists – I make all sorts of lists, really. But I find I am most effective if I write a daily list. This, of course, doesn’t happen often – who has the time to write a list every day for what needs to be done that particular day? Especially when you’ve got a baby with grabby little hands fighting to steal the pen and paper from you!

But today I wrote a list in the morning of things I wanted to accomplish and there is only one thing left on the list of 6. Not bad when a few of the items were rather time consuming ones!

One of the things on my list was, once again, sorting and posting pictures – on FB but more importantly (for the family) on flickr. It’s such a lengthy process when you have several hundred pics to go through and when you upload them onto flickr half of them for some reason are sideways and have to be rotated and blah blah blah…

BUT…and no this isn’t ideal and not something I’d make a habit of, but it worked – I was able to multitask and read And…


I noticed a new person is following my blog...with the initials JP. I'm curious why you've chosen to follow me since I've never received a comment from you or anything?...I'm not upset about it, I just thought I would say 'hi' and ask what brought you to my blog! :)

Kitty hair cuts

Our Tuesday mom/baby group at the community centre has been stopped ‘due to H1N1.’ As a precaution they’ve shut it down for the rest of the year, and then the centre is closed as of Jan 1 till the end of March because of the stupid Olympics. I’m really upset – I had no idea that when we went to the meet up 3 weeks ago (haven’t been since due to being in Nanaimo and having colds) it was our last time ever - because babies over a year generally don’t go to those meet-ups, since they’re for newer moms and babes. I wish I could have said goodbye to the nurses and volunteer that were always there – we kind of got to know them. And I was so excited this week because I was planning on showing off how Andrew is walking!


So yesterday morning the kitty cats were scheduled for grooming. It was an adventure for me because I had to get the two cats to the groomer, about a 10 minute walk from our apartment. Doesn’t sound like much but of course I also had to bring Andrew. Luckily it …

Table scraps

Tonight I finally got all my scrapbook supplies out and into the dining room. Which means the table is functional for nothing else at the moment – although I’m working on getting all the supplies set up on this tray thing that used to go in the bathroom (which can’t anymore since Andrew would knock it over). That way my scrap stuff can still be in the dining room, but sort of kind of not really out of the way (hey, at least it won’t be covering the table top when I’m not using it!) It’s not ideal but it’ll be better than having to haul everything out from the cupboard thing in the bedroom every time I want to use it.

I’m so good at finding space where there shouldn’t be any left. My parents brought over all our Xmas stuff (well, most of it) since we’ll be decorating in a couple of weeks. Three banker boxes of stuff, plus our tree (thank goodness it’s a tiny one!) I honestly didn’t think it would be possible but I managed to store it all into our hall closet and it fits nice and n…


This morning my parents looked after Andrew while James and I took a Child and Infant First Aid course. We learned how to do cpr on children and infants, as well as adults, and got first aid certified in just 3 hours. I’m glad we did it because while I hope to never have to use the skills they taught us, I feel better prepared in case of an emergency.

Andrew was so good for Gramma and Grampa. I wasn’t able to pump milk – only one ounce despite that I tried sooo many times to get more in the bottle! But interestingly, my mom said he didn’t seem interested in the bottle at all. If he’d been able to nurse at one point she thinks he would have loved to have, but the bottle doesn’t offer him the same comfort as his momma’s nipple, so he didn’t want it! It puts my mind at ease that he was good with eating some banana and having some juice and wasn’t fussing and fighting for momma’s milk the whole time. Back in the day, there is NO WAY I’d even CONSIDER going out longer than maybe even…

Here come the dramatics

So my worst nightmare (or at least one of them) has come true.

The m-i-l has booked a ticket out here. Without even discussing with us first how we actually felt about that. Without actually discussing the dates with us to make sure it is going to be at a time that works for us.

It’s 2 weeks away. And am I ready for it?


Not even close.

I feel sick to my stomach. Literally. I have been pacing and stressing ever since I read her email. Which was to James – she has yet to respond to my message, despite that we sent them at the same time. I wish she’d responded to both of us in the same manner so I wouldn’t be left waiting and wondering what she’d have to say to me. I am sick of her, her issues, and every last bit of tension/stress/disappointment/sadness/anger she has caused.

I can’t ‘let bygones be bygones’ at this point in time. They aren’t really bygones at this stage. And even though you can let things that were in the past stay in the past, they’re still a part of what make…

It feels like time to cut your breaks

Not even going to bother getting into the nitty gritty of the in-law issues. I will make a long story short. James’ mother and brother are cut from the same cloth, so why would I be surprised that things have gone sour with both of them?

It’s just sad that my attempts at letting them know I care enough to want to strengthen our relationship get shot down. They are both so defensive that even saying nice things are taken as bad things and put back in my face as if I am some horrible monster. A thorn in their sides.

It really doesn’t make any sense. But I guess some people can’t handle being called on things that they seem to enjoy doing so much. My b-i-l has a habit of calling up and freaking out at us out of the blue, for ridiculous reasons. Apparently him hanging up on James after telling him to eff off even though he didn’t do anything wrong is not supposed to rub off on me. Okaaaaay. Apparently I am the bad guy. And referred to as ‘James’ wife.’ My attempt to remind him th…

So much to do, so little time

I don’t even remember where I left off. Andrew and I were in Nanaimo till Tuesday night, now we’re back home.

Still getting over our colds – they have lasted far longer than what a cold should. Andrew has the sniffles but I think part of the reason he’s not getting rid of them is because he doesn’t know how to blow his nose! So it just stays clogged. I clean it out as best I can but it just has to run its course - it's definitely far better than it was. As for me, I keep thinking I’m on the mend, then I just seem to feel worse. It’s most likely lack of sleep that keeps me from getting better. That damn sleep issue, rearing its ugly head again…

On Monday my mom and I went to a great party supply store in Nanaimo and I’ve got the theme going for Andrew’s first birthday party! I’m excited about it, naturally. I’m going to keep it a surprise for now but I’m trying to come up with fun party ideas. My little New Years Eve baby! I know it’s a while away yet but I don’t know wh…

For days on end

I am still sick – no H1N1 here, ‘just’ a cold. But it hit me SO hard Wednesday night last week and hasn’t let up since. It just got progressively worse each day, though I think I am starting to get better now. I still have a headache and a stuffed nose and now a cough has started but that’s (sadly) ‘better’ than it’s been!

Andrew is still suffering from the sniffles as well but not nearly as bad as he was so I’d say he’ll be all better in a day or two (I hope).

Thursday Andrew and I came over to Nanaimo. I suddenly can’t remember what happened after that…I think we just hung around?! I wasn’t really up to much and if I recall correctly it was extremely stormy Thursday night. Yes, thinking about it more, it certainly was – on the ferry over they even came on the loud speaker and said it was going to be such a rocky ride that if you could stay seated the entire trip, do so. They weren’t kidding – people walking around were literally falling into the laps of those sitting in isle se…

I need rest

I thought I was fine – no sore throat today, no aches or anything. Then BAM all of a sudden tonight my nose is completely stuffed up and I clearly (or not so clearly, depending how you look at it) have a head cold. I guess I should thank my lucky stars it’s a cold and not the H1N1 flu that I’m ‘sick’ (ha) of hearing about!

But it’s super annoying since I obviously can’t have any down time, and to add insult to injury have to travel tomorrow.

But anyway, what can ya do. Oh just one more little whine about that and I’m done: It sucks that I can’t take anything for a cold. Normally I’d drug myself up with some sort of night time cold relief but since I’m breastfeeding I can’t. And even if I wasn’t breast feeding I don’t think I’d want to do it anyway because ultimately I don’t want a drug forcing me to be drowsy when I need to be ‘on’ in case my baby needs me. Gone are the days of taking pills without really thinking about it! Not that I was ever slamming back random pills but I’d e…