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I'm taking advantage of having benefits

My report from the dentist yesterday was glowing. I don’t have anything wrong with my teeth! I am so happy and extremely relieved. I hadn’t been to the dentist in over 5 years, when I last had a job with benefits. There’s no way I could afford a dental visit sans benefits – instead of $160, it cost me just under $40. $40 I can handle but the actual price is ridiculous! Mind you, I pay into my benefits on each paycheque, so if I really factored everything in, I probably haven’t saved much money. Still, there’s also the eye visit I’ll be reimbursed for. And I’ll get a portion of the money back for a prescription I got today. I’ve been going to doctors galore lately, but I’m taking care of things I’ve been meaning to do for a while.

I went to the doctor because I get really bad heartburn often, or what I believe could be acid reflux. I explained my symptoms and the doctor prescribed me Pantoloc, an acid reducer. Cost me over $70 for one month, so you can imagine why I’m hoping …

Job Woes

Things are somewhat chaotic at work right now, to say the very least. I might be out of a job soon, although I would fight it if it were to come down to that.

I am 100% sure I made the right decision in turning down the management position. In the past few days the company has proven itself to be as unprofessional as it could be, and the lack of respect alone is enough to tell me I wouldn’t want to be in a position of commitment to this company.

Basically they are trying to force the position on either me or K. Because we refused it for various reasons, they thought maybe they would split the position 3 ways between me, K and A. We said we’d prefer it if they hired someone else to take it on, but that we would be willing to sit down and DISCUSS the possibility of dividing the tasks, depending on what that would entail, how much of a raise we would get, and so on.

Instead, the current manager took that to the CEO and said we’d just split it three ways and it appears that if he decid…

Distorted Body Image

A 37 year old woman from Toronto recently died when her heart failed during a lyposuction surgery.

Reading about this story in the news got me thinking about body image and how sad it is that we feel so strongly about changing our bodies that we’re willing to risk death to feel better about ourselves. I personally would not undergo this type of surgery but I know a lot of people would. A lot of people do. It’s an epidemic, really – this idea that we must go to great lengths to be what society deems more beautiful, more thin, more happy.

Would this woman have gone for the procedure if she’d known it would kill her? Of course not. Why can’t people just be happy with who they are, love themselves for what they have, not what they’re lacking? Why do we have to see it as lacking if we’re not a certain way? And if it’s that important to fix the problem, why not use healthier methods? If the woman looked anything like she did in the picture showed in the news at the time of her surge…

The Verdict...

Ok, ok, so you want to know what I decided with regards to the job!

First of all, I have to say I went back and forth on my decision before firmly taking one side. At first I thought, no I don’t want this. Then I thought, maybe I could just try it out temporarily.

But my firm decision, the one I stuck with today when I had a meeting with my manager and then her manager, was to turn down the supervisor role.

There were way more cons to taking the job than pros. Most especially the fact that the big boss was refusing to give a proper wage for the amount of responsibility I’d have to take on. I’m talking MAYBE a one dollar an hour raise or so, IF THAT. I’m not kidding. And I don’t make that much over minimum wage to begin with, so it left me shaking my head to think I’d be taking on a management role without proper pay. They also wanted the person who took the job to commit to AT LEAST TWO YEARS. What?! At least two years locked into a crappy paid shitty dead end job?! I DON’T THI…

We just can't get enough of cruising these days!

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On Saturday we took a one night dinner and dance cruise from Seattle to Vancouver, aboard the Norwegian Star.It was a fantastic night!We went with my brother and his girlfriend by charter bus to Seattle.Oh my, what an adventure that was!We got to the border at 10:55am and didn’t get through the border till about 3:30pm.It was totally insane there.And the ship was supposed to leave at 4pm…Once we left the border it was another hour and a half drive to get to the ship.We were a little antsy, to say the least!N ended up calling the cruise line to find out if the ship would wait for us.Normally the answer would be no, but NCL had chartered 9 busses and only 3 had arrived so they actually did wait around.We got there just in time – literally 3 more minutes and they were going to leave without us!We were the last bus to arrive and make it on board.It was crazy, we literally had to run to get onto the ship!We were so lucky to make it, I’m so happy the captain of the ship was kind enough to w…

Creepy Crawlers

I’ve made a decision regarding the work debacle.I feel good about my decision.What I am doing is hopefully the right thing.I feel deep down that it is.James got up at 5 because he just couldn’t sleep and I woke up when he was closing the bedroom door (despite that he did so quite gingerly to avoid waking me!)I’m glad I woke up though, I was having this horrible dream about white spiders.(I was going to insert a picture of the white spider here till I realized it would mean doing a web search and truthfully I just don’t feel up for web searching spiders at the moment…so use your imagination or go ahead and look them up yourself!!)My parents have these spiders in their garden – they must have particular plants that attract them.I thought I didn’t mind them as much as the usual black spiders that I’m terrified of (I’m not saying I’d want one of the white ones on my person, but for some reason they seem more interesting that the usual creeper crawlers out there!)But now I’m not so sure…I …

It's quite a conundrum, this

My manager has just given her 2 weeks notice that she’s leaving the company.Her position as research manager is up for grabs.I work from home part time so I wasn’t there when she announced yesterday that she’s leaving (I heard through email).Apparently, as soon as she made her announcement, K ‘offered’ to take over her position.K has been with the company (in the same position as me) for about 3 months.I have been there for just over 7.I don’t like the idea of working under K one bit.Can we say RESENTMENT?!I have some issues with her to begin with and the idea of her swooping in and taking over the manager role just makes my skin crawl and my blood boil!Thing is, I don’t really want the position myself.I talked to my manager about it this morning and she completely understands where I’m coming from.She suggested I go for an interview with the CEO (as K will be doing) and see if I get the position.But I don’t think I want to do that.I don’t feel qualified to be the research manager, an…

Just a couple o' things, nothing really

It’s kind of sad to have put all my summer clothes away to make room for my winter stuff.I haven’t given up on my flip flops yet though, there might still be a few days left for wearing those!I’m not ready for the closed toe just yet.I’m still sad about losing a whole year’s worth of my journals from having my old laptop die on me and realizing then that it had been a whole year since I’d backed anything up.I know it’s my own fault for being so stupid, but that only makes it feel worse!I can’t believe I hadn’t done a back up in so long.All my journal entries leading up to getting married.Gone.It’s so sad to think about…Luckily we had a very long engagement so I at least have my journal entries saved from when James proposed and how I was feeling during that time.But I’m still kicking myself that I lost all my journal entries leading up to the wedding, those thoughts were important to me.And I still wonder what it was that made me decide to go out into cyber space and officially delete…

The stork is going to have to deliver ours a little later...

It’s late considering how early I have to be up tomorrow.And another week begins.Sigh.But I don’t feel like sleeping because we only just got home from our babysitting stint and I don’t want to go straight to sleep.You know when you’ve been out for hours and you come home, even if you’re tired you feel like winding down a bit before hitting the sack.That’s how I am, anyway.So this weekend turned out pretty good.The weather wasn’t sunny as I’d hoped, if anything it seems the temperature has dropped a fair bit.I’m not too excited about the fact that fall is going to be settling in pretty soon.I could use a few more weeks (or years) of summer, please and thank you!But despite the weather, we had a good couple of days.Yesterday we sorted pictures, I worked on my scrapbook and we got set up with our own domain name (although only family is going to know about it for the time being).We watched the old Disney classic Robin Hood (which neither of us had seen since we were little) and we just …

You know it's true, everything I do, oh, I do it for you

For some reason I got up this morning a little past 8 and decided to get ready for the day right off the bat.I straightened my hair, put my contacts in, moisturized and put my make up on (what little I wear) and proceeded to clean house.Not that there was much to do, but I made the bed, washed the dishes we’d left out last night, tidied the living room and then sat down with a cup of coffee.I was just settling into something on my computer when the fire alarm went off.So off we went, running down 16 flights of stairs at 9am on a Saturday.Fun times!We got outside and it seemed to take forever for the firemen to arrive.I would say ‘fire persons’ to make it more politically correct, however I’ve honestly not once seen a female firefighter come to our building, and I’ve seen many firefighters here, given how many alarms go off, both real and false!Anyway, they arrived, and as suspected (given that the only smoke we could smell was coming from the million cigarettes people were smoking aro…

Out of my funk

All is well today, I’m out of the funk I was put into last night.Mostly anyways.Those sorts of things can have long lasting effects sometimes.I won’t go into detail about it…I haven’t had a falling out with anyone or anything, it was just a bit of a bad situation…or as some might say, a ‘difficult charade.’(There’s a bit of an inside joke hidden somewhere in there).Yeah.So it’s Friday and I am happy because that means it’s the weekend, my favourite time of the week!Two days off to bask in the splendour of not working.Woot.I got my hair done today, well just my highlights retouched.The roots were growing like weeds and weren’t working with the blond highlights anymore.I’ll wait another month before getting a cut though, since I’m enjoying having length and didn’t much feel like throwing down $50 on top of what I was spending for the ‘lights.It feels like a whole new ‘do even if it’s not!I love having my hair styled for me.It always looks so much nicer, I guess I just don’t put the same…

Anywhere

I feel so depressed after what just happened.I hate suddenly getting so worked up that my nerves can’t take it and I throw up.I was feeling so good, so happy, so content, like everything was fine, and then I find myself with my face in the toilet, heaving and sobbing, helpless.I wish I’d just stayed put and wasn’t here.I hate when I wish I wasn’t anywhere.Most of the time (and always, deep down) I feel as though I’d like to live forever – obviously it’s a real shame to have to one day die.But when I’m caught up in these moments I get this almost overwhelming urge to not exist.I just want to drown out the pain more than anything else.I wish nothing affected me.I wish I was better at pretending.

Happiness is...

One thing I love doing is impressing my dad with my quick wit.Of course, pretty much anyone enjoys it when other people find them funny.But my dad is quite a witty person, and yet I am often able to one up him on things.Even though no one really likes being one upped, I know by dad secretly enjoys it because he’s proud he has such a witty daughter!I’m not out to praise myself with this, it’s just something I enjoy.When my dad bursts out laughing because of something I said, I take it all in as pride. I spent the past few days in Nanaimo.Yesterday (Wednesday) was my mom’s birthday.She usually hates her birthday because of external circumstances, generally ones that are out of her control.But there has just always been SOMETHING wrong with her birthday.So I went over in hopes that being there and helping her celebrate would make things a bit brighter.I still had to work, but in around that we were able to get out and enjoy the day.I took my mom out for lunch and after work we sat out i…

This one's NOT for the religiously inclined...

I’M not what you’d call religious – not by any means of the term.When I was a young child I went to Sunday School for a time, until my mother fell out of the hands of religion and didn’t feel it necessary to drag us off to Church on Sunday mornings.I have only vague memories of my time spent in the slightly dark, overbearing walls of the Presbyterian church we attended.Sunday School was held downstairs, in the bowels of the building.I remember being forced to sit on the cold, hard floor, crowded in with all the other children, to listen to what I guess was a sermon.I don’t really remember much of anything that was spoken, but what I do remember is the cookies that were passed around after the speaking was finished.I wish I could say I remember those cookies fondly.But unfortunately it seemed I had bad luck with the cookie tray.Each week I picked the same type of cookie thinking it was going to be a basic can’t-fail cookie-of-the-chocolate-chip variety.Instead, each time I accidentally…

Random Tidbits

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(Pictures were taken en route to and in Nanaimo on the Labour Day Long Weekend)
It’s interesting the way people will become positive during a time when it seems really important to be, but at other times they let themselves slip into a funk.Why not look at it that all times are important, so be as positive as possible all the time? If you feel as if you have nothing to look forward to, create something!It can’t be that difficult.There’s always something around the corner! We’re babysitting little baby L this weekend and I’m so excited!We can pretend we’re parents for a few hours and finally get a taste for what it’s going to be like!It’ll be interesting, that’s for sure.I haven’t looked after a little one like that for many years, but I’m itching for the chance!I was just talking to James the other day about how I can’t wait to have a baby so this will be a test to find out how ready I truly am!!It’s going to be so much fun babysitting together, something we’ve never done before.And b…

Three Things

Number One.I came up with a totally awesome idea.I don’t know how to implement it so I’m going to give away my secret, despite that I’m sure it could be a huge money maker!My idea is: a camera that takes snapshots of SMELLS!I was walking past a flower shop today and a plethora of wonderfully sweet scents nearly floored me.I wanted to take that smell home with me!I couldn’t afford to buy all the flowers that made up that lovely scent, so I thought to myself, imagine if I had my camera with me, and it just so happened that it not only took a picture of the flowers, but a picture of just how those flowers smelled!I think it’s genius.I wish I’d had a smell camera in Bermuda, I could take a whiff of Horseshoe Bay beach right now, close my eyes and pretend I’m there basking in the sun!Number Two.I went to the dollar store today to look for some do-dads for my scrapbook.I ended up getting a bunch of different stickers.Just as I was heading up to the till to pay, this guy comes into the store…

Still floating on Cloud 9!

I haven’t been writing at all lately because all of my spare time is taken up with my newly discovered passion:Scrapbooking.I’ve played around a bit with digital scrapbooking in Photoshop, but my real interest lies with scrapping with an actual scrapbook, double sided tape, and tons of pictures.I’ve printed regular sized 4x6 pics as well as about a million others of various smaller sizes.I went to Michael’s craft store and with a 20% off coupon got a whole wack of do-dads and papers and things to use on my pages.I don’t have a LOT because my gawd that stuff is expensive, but I got enough that I can do some interesting things rather than just lining up each picture the boring old way.I’m having so much fun with it!I feel so creative and I get to keep thinking about the wedding and pretending I’m still there living it =)I wish I could make scrapbooks all day long, every day.Maybe eventually I’d get tired of it but so far I can’t get enough!It’s a big job though – I have maybe finished a…

Wedding Photo Extravaganza!

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We FINALLY got our pictures. Oh my, what an adventure that was. But anyway, they're ours now and that's all that matters!

With approximately 600 photos to go through (our black and whites haven't even arrived yet, so once we get those we'll be at 800 or so!), there are tons of pictures I COULD post, but I've just resized a few for the time being. I also don't want to post the ones with all our family members in them because I know some people don't like pictures of themselves plastered over the internet when they haven't been asked. So here's just a small taste of our special day:

James and I decided not to get caught up in silly superstition. We met up in the afternoon before our ceremony to get some pictures taken on the grounds outside the Westin Bayshore.
Here I am on the dock, about to board the Magic Moment yacht to get hitched...James and I couldn't believe we were finally there getting married - all through the ceremony we just grinned …