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How can I post a song on my blog?? Any ideas would be greatly appreciated :)

Get off your high horse, please and thank you.

Some majorly stressful issues have arisen due to the love of bad timing and drama by certain individuals who shall remain nameless.Will this saga EVER end?I’m so beyond sick of it at this point.I have come to realize that right now this isn’t something my nerves can handle and I’m not going to let this certain someone (or, since they tend to enjoy ganging up, certain someones) destroy me.And even though the wedding’s coming up so I can’t avoid these people completely, I honestly think it would be best if we kept our distance as much as possible.I just shake my head in disbelief at their antics.Other than that, things are good.It’s just unfortunate that the bad have caused me to feel quite depressed these past couple of days.I’m doing my best to move on though.I KNOW they’re not worth it.And they sure as hell wouldn’t get all bent out of shape over me, so, really, why should I bother over them.At least the weather is improving.And I like the new office where I work (the company relocat…

Feast your eyes on these

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Finally, the pictures I've been meaning to post for ages, taken the past few times I've been in Nanaimo...

Enjoy!






Think about what you are doing to me, because it hurts

So many thoughts running through my brainBut there just aren’t enough words to describe the way I’m feeling.It really hurts me when people accuse me of things out of the blue in such a mean way.I don’t like conflict and I don’t create it in my every day life.So why I am treated like this, I will honestly never know.I feel like Alice when she cried so many tears, she nearly drowned herself.I want to believe that things can get better but I am not going to be the one to make it happen.I will do my part but I will never be able to fully relax with it after all is said and done.I’m tired and I can’t formulate my thoughts because they’re too jumbled and really, when it comes down to it, what’s the point in trying?It’s not going to change the situation.This is not one of those times where letting out my feelings is going to make everything come into perspective. There really is no perspective here to go by.I believe we deserve better.I feel so sad that right now, there is nothing else.

Everything is as it seems

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James is on his way home from the airport and I can't wait to see him! He got sick while in San Jose and isn't feeling well and it made me feel sick just knowing I couldn't take care of him when he needed me there. So I'm going to make it up to him with a hot bubble bath and a back rub when he gets home :)
I missed him this week while he was away, but there was a lot going on that kept my mind from going into a tizzy over it. I enjoyed my time in Nanaimo, and then I was working from home the past few days. I would have preferred if James was here with me of course, but it was also good to have a few days to myself. I had to work but around that I also got a lot done around the apartment that I wouldn't have if he'd been here...like his desk for example. Tsk, tsk, James, what a total pig sty! I have it looking spotless and perfect. What do you want to bet a few days from now it will be reverted back to its hideously messy old self? Oh well, I guess there…

Here we go again...

Yet again, the building fire alarm went off just before 1am.Luckily I hadn’t gone to bed yet, so I made my way down the 16 flights of stairs relatively quickly.It ended up being a false alarm.I think the arsonist is getting antsy now that the garbage chute has been closed down permanently due to all the fires from before…so they’re back to what they were doing a while back: pulling the fire alarm in one of the hallways ‘for fun.’Gawd, I am so sick of this place…I love it here and then every time this happens I think, WE HAVE GOT TO MOVE!

It's time to let go...

Spending a few days in Nanaimo this week, I finally got around to cleaning out the closet in my old bedroom.I’ve done it numerous times in the almost decade since I’ve been living on my own.But there was one box in particular that had a lot of old writing in it that I kept putting off going through.So once and for all I tackled it and ended up with a huge stack for recycle, a huge stack for shredding, and only a small stack of stuff I want to hold onto.A lot of my writing was journals and going through it all could have been a very emotional experience.But I kept my wits about me and weeded through it rather quickly, shredding all those memories I’d rather not be reminded of again.So much about past boyfriends and all I went through with them.Things I don’t care about anymore and quite frankly want left so far in the past that I will get as close to forgetting as possible.I kept only those notes that were creative or funny or something I’d be comfortable sharing with the world.I could…

So much to think about...

James is off to San Jose for a week for work.It’s going to be hard being separated, especially since we’ve really been attached at the hip more than ever lately, it seems.But I’ll be keeping busy between work and everything else.Yesterday we went over to P&H’s house.Their little baby, L, is 4 months old.She’s the most adorable baby ever!There is nothing about her that isn’t totally cute.And holding her and watching her be her little baby self, I am more keen than ever to start a family of my own.As soon as we get back from our honeymoon, I think it’s gonna be time to think about trying =)I’d still like for us to get more financially stable before we go for it, but on the other hand if we wait till we’ve actually got lots of money saved up, the truth is my eggs will probably all be shriveled up and gone.I don’t want to wait that long!!!I think it would be tough but we would be able to make do.It would be so wonderful to have our own little bundle of joy to cherish and raise to hope…

Ho-Hum...

Sometimes it’s just too painful to put in writing the very things we need to let out the most.Things add up into a giant stress ball and it becomes so tangled, you can’t figure out where to begin unraveling it.Every little issue that would normally seem irrelevant becomes such a big deal that you think your head could very well explode if you think about it too long.Part of you wishes it just would so you could stop thinking about any of it.I feel bad when people who are close to me, people that I love, say things about themselves that are so negative.It hurts me because I don’t like the idea that they’re that unhappy with themselves as to say those things.I sometimes see a look or a gesture from someone I think I know quite well and I wonder what little innuendos they are projecting.I start thinking about it so much that I wonder how much of it is me being paranoid and how much of it is actually happening.I hate second guessing.I’m excited about upcoming events but a part of me is st…

Movie Reviews and Thoughts About Religion

Tonight we watched The Pursuit of Happyness starring Will Smith and his son in real life, Jaden Smith.I give it a 10 out of 10.I really liked it.For a while now I haven’t been a fan of Will Smith.I’m not attracted to the tough look-at-my-big-muscles-aren’t-I-all-that image that he tends to portray. In fact, I got to the point of disliking him so much that I even found him obnoxious in Shark Tales, and he was a cartoon character in that movie!
But The Pursuit of Happyness was different.I really enjoyed the message and felt sad but content at the same time while watching the film.I found myself feeling disappointed when it was over, not because I didn’t like it but because I wanted to see more!And the fact that it’s based on a true story is quite inspiring.So go out and rent this movie!Oh and last night we watched a documentary called Jesus Camp. It’s about Evangelism in the United States, specifically focusing on a group of kids who go to a bible camp in (ironically) Devil’s Lake, No…

I need ideas

I've been looking into what gifts to get people in our wedding party. Specifically we want to give gifts to our brothers and our parents. Our parents for obvious reasons, our brothers because James' brother is his Best Man and my brother is my Man of Honour.

We'd like to get something original for each of them but we're not sure what. It'd be nice to get some sort of keepsake that can be engraved, but I don't want to go the route of the beer mug or whatever. Often that's what the best man gets but we want to do something different...

While I'd like for them to each have a keepsake, I thought it might also be nice to get people experiences. But we also don't have a ton of money to spend on each person so we have to factor that in as well...

Anyone have any ideas for what might make a good gift for the parents or for the brothers? Any thoughts on this would be so extremely helpful!

Thanks in advance!!!

Today is 5, 6, 7

It has been an eventful week.After 3 days of headaches, I got a cold that turned into a flu that turned back into a cold.I’m almost through it now I think, just a little sniffle and the occasional cough.It’s still getting on my last good nerve, but it’s a lot better than it was.Unfortunately the flu part came on right when I was going over to Nanaimo to stay with my parents for a few days.It was a planned trip that couldn’t be canceled, because I was going over to help put on a garage sale.We had tons to prepare in the days leading up to Saturday, so despite being sick I had to bite the bullet and do lots of sorting and pricing and organizing of stuff.It was okay though, I was able to take frequent breaks in between.Oh and somehow I also managed to put in my hours for work!It was a pretty crazy couple of days.But I did get to go and put my wedding dress on again =)I had to go for my alterations, so I go back in a few more weeks to make sure it fits just so.Oh my GOD is it expensive to…